Nourishing Love ♥

Chapter 49: You're Everything I Hope For

i hate to pretend
but i know i have to

i hate to say how much i hate you
but knowing inside my heart that i hearts you

i hate to say how sucky you are
but knowing actually how nice you are

i hate to fake everything out
but i have to hide it without letting you know

letting you know the truth

i hate to give myself a hope
and then everything turns out, it disappoint me

i hate to dream my dreams with you inside
and then actually you're not even around me

i just dont want to pretend that i dont love you
i just want you to know that i still love you
i just dont want you to hate me
i just want you to just know how much i give out

i just dont want you to leave me
i just want you to be with me

i'm holding onto something that doesn't belongs to me.
i wanted to let go but i cant
the strings of the balloons are stuck
it tied down a knot on my hand

i've lost the strength to fight
or to untied the knot

i'll just hold onto it
till the day the knot untied itself
and the balloons will fly away with the wind
without knowing i'm still sitting there
with loneliness acompany me

youjusthavetounderstandthatiloveyoumorethananything!♥