Nourishing Love ♥

Chapter 51: Back

hey ya all, miss me?
i know i know
i've been ~~dead~~ gone for weeks
and tada, here i am, backk desuu~

so you guys can stop the ~~mourning~~ missing already.

well, recently im learning driving
and it turns out to be very fun!
and no i did not bang on a tree nor a tiang
thanks for the support =3=

i love controling the steering
but it's scary to have another person's live
IN YOUR HAND

well, my dad is sitting beside me
i surely dont want anything happen to him
so actually i AM very very nervous.

but turns out well.
well, of course because i only learn
the brake and the steering control

LOL

had 3 lessons of driving already
no words can describe this except FUN!
better than having a birthday party. LULS. XD

seriously, i can teach someone after i had everything in hand.
include the car key and P card
so sharon, be prepared.

i'm a evil guidance. >)

btw, notes to SHARON
dont bang my car to the wall nor a tree nor a tiang.
thankiess.
i dont wish my dad kill me. 3Q~

each and each day
my life is getting more and more boring
except the butterflies in my stomach
more and more active each day cause

SPM is coming nearer and nearer

but i'm now in starbucks coffee online-ing
LOL
i'm a epic lil' girl
please do love me much. >D

THE FOLLOWING SENTENCE IM TYPING NEXT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE TITLE TODAY BUT PLEASE DONT MIND. CAUSE THIS IS MY BLOG. LOL.

i miss you.
i want you to be with me.
i want everything of you.
i want to be part of you.
i want to be somewhere in your heart.

i love you.
i wish you would know.
i wish you give me an answer.
i wish you would love me back.
i wish you can treat me more than a friend.

but i know it wouldn't happen

many of them told me not to take back what has been threw away
but sorry guys, i failed you all
i..like him back.

well, feelings cant actually be forced right?
like you cant force me into liking you nor
i can force myself into not liking him

it's the same thing not matter how many times
you think 'em all over
again and again

seeing many couples on the street
i'm envious. seriously.
i want to be like 1 of them

holding my other one's hand
hugging each other's waist
sleeping on each other's shoulder
kissing on each other's lips

i like this a lot.
i can feel his warmth
he can feel mine

and the heartbeats so fast
we want to hide it from each other
not letting the other to know about it
it's embarrassing i know
anyone knows

when can i find this feeling back?
days later?
weeks later?
months later?
or maybe years later?

i hate being alone
my hand feels so cold
my waist feels empty
my shoulder lost it's weight
my lips feels lonely

i want everything back but i know it wouldn't happen
and i wouldn't let it happen

i want the guy i love now to give me this feelings again
the past would be the past

i want to be someone's important person
someone that i take him as the most important in my life too

would that ever happen?
i really dont know
i just hope i wouldn't be alone
when my bestie got married with her most important person

at that moment, i'll totally positively mentally break down

and how far should and can i run?
only to make you miss me and feel lost..