Nourishing Love ♥

Chapter 36: I Should Kept It

so i told her abt something
abt a crush thingy
and she's not surprise and
i'm surprise for her not surprise-ness

so she knew and i noe ntg
she a good guesser i think
she's a mind-reader
and i've been read

i dunno wat to do by now
i for so so long thinking should i tell her or not
if i told her she would be veri hurt
and i noe tat

in the end she forced me
and i spit out

everything abt the crush thingy

i shouldnt told her
i prefer i myself to suffer than her
she suffered too much
and i dun wan to see her suffer again

but i put salt on her unhealed scars
i'm the bad 1
i shouldnt tell her
i shouldnt tell her!!

it's all my fault

now there's no more smile on her face
now there's no more talks between us

i regret
if i could turn time back
i'll choose not to tell
at least not now

i still wanna be friends with u
we promised to be BF forever
we promised to live as neighbour in the future
we promised to together always no matter wat happen

how i wish these promises din break
how i wish we can still stay the same
how i wish our plans still carry on

i still dun wan to lose u yet
i still wan u as my besttie
i still nid u in my life
i cant bear the pain if i had to lose u

u're juz my best sister ever
and i reli dun wanna lose u
not now, not ever...