Nourishing Love ♥

Chapter 2: Thinks and Wonders

today my crazy neechan come to my house
sleepover.

so we just play play and play la.
and just now,
she forgot to bring her mechanical pensil.

so i company her go home.
her house is so like in the middle of ~~trees~~ ~~bushes~~
JUNGLE!

and after picking up all the things we need,
we walked to the bus-stop
and wait for bus

and her friend bring her dog for a walk.
her brother is there too.

and i never saw some ANNOYING brat like him!!
he doesn't even know me
but he's hitting me.

my back
my hand
my leg

URGH!
just ANNOYING!

when the bus came
my heart was saying this

me:
finally, the bus.thank you so much!
you've saved me from a disaster.

and i reach home!

before my neechan comes,
i was thinking a lot.

about him.
he told me last Sat
when we're at MidValley.

he said he's going to Singapore again.
to celebrate Christmas with his father.

his father is working at Singapore.
so almost every year he'll go to Singapore.

on the 20 of Dec
he's going to leave.

last time when he told about leaving
i cried.
and i cried a lot.

for hours and days.

but after what happen Sunday.
i don't really know what to do.

i've been thinking and wondering a lot.
am i holding him?
am i annoying?
am i a nobody o him?

i just feel lonely without him.
but still i wish he doesn't come back.

i will play the swing alone.
sitting in the dark.
waiting for no one to light up
my darkness.

but the reality is
he will come back

and i will fall for him again.
i just don't understand why
i'm so into him.

he is just a normal guy
with thousands of bad characters inside.

but
i ~~like~~ ~~love~~ ~~like~~
ok. i admit!

i.. LOVE him.

Love with never ending sorrows
is the unchained melody that is chaining my heart.
Maybe the time has come.
I should start saying goodbye to this ever lasting love of mine.

and i'm still thinking and wondering.

-silence-